Dear reader Adriana(The mom of my God-daughter) has decided to get back with her ex and they plan to remarry sometime next year(the divorce was never final they are still legally married but want a new wedding) and I am to be her maid of honor: ).

I have joined New Pagan FB groups to hopefully make new friends: ). I did have an interesting conversation with a guy I met on there last night, he hasn’t messaged me since though(He said he would).

I also want to take the time to thank the people that commented on my post about wanting new friends yesterday It means a lot to me:). All of my readers, views, likes, comments, and followers mean a lot to me dear reader: ).

This time of year is always harder for me, my ex’s birthday is the 28th of this month, our wedding anniversary is the 10th of December, Christmas is my brother Shaun’s birthday and a few weeks later is when he died He was 28 when he passed away and I never got to say goodbye: (.

I know that I will be ok soon it just doesn’t feel that way right now.  Today even started out wrong, I had a good dream last night and I woke up to a phone call from my friend Esther telling me that she was in the hospital more than likely having a miscarriage :(.

I  just hope that the good news comes soon:).