Dear reader this post is for me to vent my own personal feelings, no more no less so please know that I am not talking bad about anyone.
Dear reader I have come to see that being a Pagan can be very lonely for me at times.
I personally feel like I have no one around me who I can vent to and bounce ideas off of in regards to my faith.
I have friends that are Pagan however the vast majority of them are Wiccan and they believe that all Gods are the same and I just need to accept that even though to me personally I have never experienced the Gods that way.
I am not saying that belief is wrong I am saying it doesn’t feel true to me or in my personal opinion respect how the Gods have chosen to come to me.
They also feel that I just need to relax and focus on personal development instead of trying to figure out and understand the message I believe that the Gods are sending me through dreams and other things.
I understand that one random dream or sign may not mean anything however I have been dealing with multiple dreams and things over a long period of time.
It’s like how many times do you need to be hit over the head before you get it.
I understand that part and I get that They are telling me that things will fit together, however to me right now it feels like I can see point A and B but no bridge in sight to connect the two.
I know this is where faith comes in.
It’s just that I am having issues and They are like “well this will fix it” and I am like great that makes sense but how do I get there?
And They say well you need to go here and it will allow A to happen and I am like awesome how do I get there and that’s where I see no bridge.
It also doesn’t help that to be deeply honest here sexual energy seems to be becoming more and more important lately.
However I haven’t had any since May of 2011. And I am frankly getting very cranky.
They say that this will be helped and dealt with when my guy finally shows up.
However in order for that to happen I need to more than likely be at the area he will be at so we can meet.
Then comes the bridge issue. I know that I need to focus on find the bridge but the sexual tension/sex drive is driving me nuts. Which makes focusing that much harder.
Which makes the problem that much harder to solve.
PS. If not for you dear reader and this blog I know I would go insane so thank you from the bottom of my heart.
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I ‘get’ it… and I’ve experienced the same kind of frustrations in the past until one day I just ‘let go’ and let things happen as they may. I believe if they are meant to happen, they will happen. We tend to get analysis paralysis by thinking too much about things and driving ourselves crazy. When you let go of all of that and just keep moving forward with intent and trusting that universe/gods/goddesses/or whatever …. things seem to work out best in the end.
Great article and honest and something I think we can all relate to. Don’t place too much emphasis on what other Pagans subscribe to, or anyone else for that matter. These are personal choices and we are all entitled to walk our own path. Harm none and do as you will… means do as YOU will, not what others want you to do 🙂
Thanks for your reply :). I am trying to let go however when things keep showing up over and over that I am not getting it makes that hard for me to do because I feel like I am ignoring the Gods if that makes sense: ). Blessed Be