She needs my help but I feel like I can barely handle taking care of myself today

Dear reader my friend Janet called me 3 times so far today and I didn’t answer because I was asleep, she needs me to help because of her addiction.

I know that addiction is a disease, however to be totally honest here part of me is angry because no one made her take the drug that FIRST time(I understand addiction takes over after that).

I don’t get how someone who has a body that works(walks, talks, etc) would risking fucking it up(sorry for my language but I feel strongly about this).

I mean I don’t see any sane person saying Coke is a good thing and most people know that so why start it.

I have addiction in my close family and they never really told me to feel bad for them they just told me that if I followed them I was an idiot, it was a front row seat to what not to do.

She says she needs me to tell her that she and this will be ok, however I know that if she doesn’t get help and she continues to drink and do coke at the same time she could die.

How the fuck am I supposed to say that’s going to end right?

She tells me at the end of every call I am done I am never going to do it again and the next day or so is always the same “I did some, it was only a little bit. Do you think I will be ok?”

I get her calmed down by the end of the call but I feel like I am lying.

Today my legs hurt so bad I don’t want to move. I don’t feel like I can take care of myself today. I feel selfish and horrible but it’s the truth I just want myself to be ok. I don’t think I can lie today.

6 thoughts on “She needs my help but I feel like I can barely handle taking care of myself today

  1. Then don’t lie today. Tell her the truth; tell her essentially what you’ve said here. Then detach, with love. Maybe the thing that will make her stop is no longer having you there to enable her. Best to you both.

    1. Thanks for you’re comment, I have told her this every time, However I am one one of only a few close friends she has and I don’t think I would forgive myself if she hurt herself because I left.

      I think after awhile she is going to realise my help can only go so far.

      1. I unfortunately live too far away to do that also I don’t know of any of her family that can help. Her husband does know about her problems and hopefully he gets her help soon.

  2. This is now affecting you in a way that it shouldn’t. You are a good friend, but she needs cold hard facts, not sugar coating the truth. You know that it is right, I can read it in your words. It will be better in the long run, trust me, if you are upfront and call a spade a spade. Coke is never okay.

    1. I have told her last night that I believe she will probably die if she continues however she starts to cry and bring up suicide (she has had hospital time for it before)

      I just don’t know what else to do. I don’t even know the addresses to where she lives

      I don’t know what else I can

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