OMGS dear reader Alex just texted me that he loves me.

I have said it before to him occasionally, usually randomly when I want him to know I really am serious or when it slips out.

I really do love him and Yes, dear reader I know it’s crazy.

Every time I have said it he has said:

“I know”.

This is the first time he said I love you back. I am in shock.

This is the first time I have ever went into something where my only intent is to help a person.

NOT to fix them or change them(I know that is wrong and pointless) but to help them in any way I can(within reason) and to put a smile on their face.

A relationship is an awesome bonus, it was not and never will be the goal.

If tomorrow for whatever reason he decided that he doesn’t want to be with me anymore I would be so sad however I would still want to see him happy.

I hope this makes sense to you dear reader, I have told my friends the part about just wanting to see him happy and they say I am nuts.