Dear reader one of my first boyfriend’s ever messaged me on Facebook a month ago but I didn’t see it until last night because it went into my “other” folder.
He said he missed me and I was still as beautiful as when he first saw me. I haven’t seen him in person for about 11 years.
I finally heard from my bf today but he is still kind of avoiding me. It makes me sad because I have had about 3 different guys tell me I am pretty and deserve better over the last few days and I don’t know what to do.
I know my bf is busy but I really could use a text saying it will be ok(I have literally told him this by text and phone)
The last time we talked(3 days ago) He said I just need to not care so much about others which isn’t really helpful when it’s really close friends and family who are going through troubles.
I heard from him this morning and he said he is working and will call me later and he had some drama last night.
I just honestly don’t know if he can really deal with having a gf at this point.
We haven’t seen each other in a month because of his car issues(My chair makes driving impossible for me..jumpy and twitchy behind the wheel is not a good thing). He used to say he was trying to see me but not anymore.
My dad wants to go to the casino(where I first met him) in a few weeks but I don’t know if he can meet me there or if he will even be around for me to let him know about it.
I feel like I have the title of girlfriend but it doesn’t mean anything right now, I also feel bad for wanting at least a text message a day(if he called every so often or was closer it wouldn’t matter).
I guess I want him to text me first for once, yesterday and the day before I didn’t text or call at all and he didn’t seem to notice.
I just feel lonely: (.
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i know the feeling… Just tell him if he needs to be alone to just do it, and not to string you along.
I hope this makes sense and doesn’t sound too harsh, I can’t really handle the guit trips I am almost sure he will play. I want to tell him in person if I can how I feel and see if he will step up or not.
I feel like I met him just in time to watch him fall off a cliff in slow motion.
Thanks so much for your comment: )
i know what you mean! don’t let him guilt trip you. write down that you are not wrong in saying this, write down your proof, just to reassure yourself in case he plays those games.
He doesn’t have much in California right now (He is from Iowa) and he has told me in the past that I am the only good thing he has out here(I met him when he had been out here a month) and I don’t want to be the excuse he gives for doing something stupid because “no one cares” I can’t handle anymore stress right now.
gosh… you’re in such a tough spot!
I know and he has had a really rough past and has told me: “this is his last shot” I don’t mean with me I mean if things go wrong he just wants to go home to Iowa and give up trying.
I just feel like he used to be a lot more level headed.
if he really appreciated you that much wouldn’t he have spent more time with you or at least talked to you..?
He tells me when we do talk that he thinks of me every day, but it feels like he thinks I know this already so he doesn’t have to try. It’s confusing to me