Note to reader: I am writing this post to get these thoughts out of my system and to have it here to see/remind myself of whenever things get crazy. Nothing more nothing less. Also if you’re curious about the situation with my ex husband check out the “Ending” tab of my blog it’s all there.
Dear reader last night I had a really weird dream I don’t want to write the whole thing here because I don’t remember everything about it and I want you to be able to understand it.
The part I do remember was that I was with a guy at a wedding reception(it wasn’t mine) and for some odd reason(probably dream time logic) two of my ex ‘s were also there, one was the first guy I ever liked and the other one my ex husband.
In the dream they were both siting at the same table as me with some other people. As I was telling one person at the table that I saw my husband my ex husband started to get up out of his seat like I was talking about him however I saw this guy who had dark eyes, dark hair, and the body type of a football player or bouncer come towards me and sit down.
He grabbed my hand and I knew that he was the person I was talking about(No, dear reader I don’t recognize him from my real life yet). I gave him a kiss on the cheek and he noticed that my ex’s were staring at us. He said to them:
“Why are you mad now when you are the ones who let her go?”.
They got quite at that point but were still trying to figure out why we were together, you know size up the new guy.
Then the guy I was married to in the dream said:
“It’s simple I am with her because I love her.”
At that point we kissed again and I woke up.
Dear reader I think it was a reminder to me that someone else can/will love me again and I don’t have to settle for my ex husband’s crap. He is trying to get me to give him another chance although he told me himself that if I find someone/get a way to file for divorce before he can get his life together to go for it.
I am not wanting for him, right now I am currently working on finishing getting my teeth fixed and my health where it needs to be.
I think sometimes you need a reminder that you are loveable and that there are people who are looking for their first chance with you who haven’t hurt you or broken your heart.