Note to reader: The following post is ONLY about me telling you about how I am currently feeling emotionally right now as I am currently writing this post right now. I’mnot trying to get anyone to feel sorry for me, I’m trying to get my emotions out of my system and hopefully feel a bit better afterwards.
Dear reader because of a lot stuff that is currently going on with my dad right now(I can’t really explain why because it’s not my stuff to tell it’s my dad’s business) I’ve been having more anxiety attacks recently, it feels like I’ve been holding my breathe all day(not literally). I haven’t been able to read much which is why my book reviews are late right now.
I’ve been on Twitter(@BookNerd0486 is my screen name on there if you want to say hi to me that way) because it’s easier to type up shorter things (I feel really weird about just writing a post on here with just a few sentences, not counting my “Things that I am thankful for today” posts”) and because of the fact that I can(most of the time) get an instant response from the people who follow me there, I’m so thankful that I have gotten some really nice people following me on there.
I know that I won’t know more about what’s going on with my dad/if we will have to move until July at the earliest(the final decision on everything probably won’t be known until possibly October if not a few months later) but the waiting in the meantime is driving me nuts.
One I want my dad to be okay and secondarily to that I want to know if/when we will have to move so that I can plan accordingly. I know in my mind that it doesn’t do any good to worry about what ifs that might not even happen but it’s a lot of choices that come down to me and I can’t really vent to anyone the full extent of how I feel about everything because the majority of the time I just hear “that sucks, wish I could help you but I can’t”, “Suck it up”, “Everything will be okay, don’t worry about it.” I don’t really want to hear any of those things right now.
I promise to keep you updated as much as I can as soon as I know more. Thanks again for your support dear reader it means more to me than I can ever truly explain or thank you for.