I am going to be upfront and honest with you right now and say that I am currently feeling like crap physically(My CP, Cerebral Palsy has been really kicking my butt since 3:00AM or so)  and emotionally right now and I know that this year has been definitely different than passed years.

For the first time in many years since I have been split from my ex hubby(hopefully divorce papers sometime in 2015) I am not starting this day sad that I am single.

Alex is around even though there is a lot of personal drama on his side of the fence right now, what I like to call situational BS.

I don’t know if we will have forever or anywhere near close to it, it seems like every time we are about to break up we get closer.

He says he doesn’t want to get anymore attached to me than he is already because his life is so up in the air right now, however he is saying I love you more than ever.

It’s like “don’t leave me, as I don’t know where I am going. ”

He just told me last night as he asked for my addresses that he bought me a gift(I have no idea what it is) and he is having it shipped to me because he doesn’t have a car right now.

I don’t know what this year will have in store for me but thank you from the very bottom of my heart for staying on this journey with me it means so much to me to have you with me.

Here’s hoping you stick around and we both have a safe, happy, and blessed 2015.