Note to reader: The following post is ONLY about me getting my personal thoughts/emotions that I’m currently feeling at this moment out of my system(which is and always will be the core purpose of this blog)

Last night I had a dream that my ex husband was back around again(For the backstory on us check out the “Ending” category of my blog it’s all there) the most important part about the dream was that I told him that I didn’t want to be with him again.

The truth is that even though it’s physically(because of my wheelchair) and sometimes emotionally difficult to be by myself I wouldn’t go back to him even if I could. Thanks to your support dear reader I have something that I really look forward to and has helped me to open up to people and to accept and love myself as I am.

I am happy being here, I know that if I went back to him he would eventually destroy this blog and all of progress I’ve made over the last 7 years since we split because everything I do or have has to be about/revolve around him or he doesn’t let me do it.

I’ve worked way too hard to go back to him for anything, deep down in my heart and soul I know that there is a man out there who will love me and respect me even with my wheelchair.