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I haven’t talked to him, yet I still forgive him in my heart because 1, I don’t want any anger in my heart and 2, because deep down I know that I still love him(and probably always will even if he or I end up with others).
I still want to cheer for him if and when he makes it onto the Food Network(You know that I will be blogging the episode dear reader) plus I want to create with him(stories and YouTube stuff since he has a channel).
I also really believe that he deserves a friend. Before you ask dear reader No, I am not turning down another guy if he shows up and we match well.
Right now I’m just taking it a day at a time and enjoying time with my dad(more book reviews are coming once the anxiety attacks calm down enough so that I can focus on reading, I’ve been reading a few pages here and there as I can).
You guys are really becoming even more of my safe space to vent whatever I am feeling and to be as I am. I thank you so much for your support for me on this journey and I can’t wait to see where we go from here. I promise to keep you updated as soon as I know anything new about anything that’s going on around me.
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